But I Know Her!

Alright everyone, surprise surprise, but I gave it again today and it was the same old story. Empty house, and while I have things to do…procrastination is a bitch.

Anyways, a while back I discovered that I actually know a porn star; granted, she was came over to my house with her friend and told me she was a porn star, but I didn’t believe it until I saw a video of her a few months back. Anyways, on the random YouTube-esque porn site that I like, a new video featuring her was at the top of the list. I thought, “well I’ll just take a look at it”. It’s really weird man…I mean my friend has slept with her.

The fact that I know the girl doesn’t give me any excuse for looking at it, but I will admit that it played into my decision to click the mouse button. Sometimes I feel that the porn isn’t really that big of a problem for me; in my past, it once was and now it’s down to a pretty tolerable level most of the time. But I’m trying to control and limit it to my will. I don’t think I’ll go the route of monitoring software…I just need to be strong.

Start the clock back to zero, it’s time to start once again…I’m hoping for the last time.