At Least I Think It’s Real…

What defines an “addiction”? Is it a chemical dependence that the body physically craves, or is it merely an obsessive compulsion, such as could be said for activities such as eating or running? Regardless, the more I look into it, I believe that pornography addiction is a legitimate condition, primarily because it is something that I have been struggling with for the majority of my life.

Pornography has served as a crutch that I’ve come back to again and again, even though it does nothing to increase the quality of my life; quite the contrary, my use of pornography has led to some very negative results in my life, including the loss of several friends.

A while back, some people came to my college to talk about the dangers of pornography addiction. I attended just to see what it was about; although I knew used pornography more than an average person, I couldn’t put much stock into this group’s message…and there was a reason. The second half of the presentation was essentially a video of people confessing about how their conversion to Christianity “saved them”.

Now, I know that religion can be a very powerful concept, but I’m an atheist and have been my entire life. Instead of using pornography as a platform to push my religious beliefs, I’ll be keeping a log of my life, thoughts and realizations…at least the ones in some way related to how pornography has intersected my life…in order to help my own healing and promote the very real condition that I believe pornography addiction to be.